`take my HAND* NEVER let go-

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Saturday, May 7, 2011

Love Letter

Dear God,

I am very sad, hurt and angry now. My soul is very burdened by current affairs. Before I turn to Your Word for comfort, I’m coming here to share with You how I feel now.
I’m really very frustrated with the actions of certain people. God, why are they like that? How can they do this to me? Why do they do such thing?!
Also I’m very discouraged when everything I’ve hoped dearly for failed. Like they did not come to pass. These are what I really want and I’ve been praying… God, when will they really happen?
Today I really hope to fellowship with my cell group but in the end when I’m sad and need some encouragement, my spiritual family is not there for me. Even some friends I hope to spend some quality time with ‘disappear’. I feel very lonely in church. The closest people always hurt the most. But I know I play a part too. I’m sorry if I have not done well, again.

God, can I try again?
You know all those who have done me wrong/hurt me… God help me to forgive them.
Today message about blessing through suffering kind of warm my heart. It reminded me that You are still here. Maybe nothing else of those matters anymore… God, will You reply my letter? What can I do to strengthen myself through all these disappointments?
God You know as I write this, tears keep rolling down my cheek. Some things lost can never be found again.

Where can I find the motivation, to live again?

Love,
Me

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Monday, March 28, 2011

Sweetest Devotion

It’s been a special month. I’m going on a roller coaster ride again. I don’t know how things will turn out but I’m trusting God… whatever that has happened, happens for a reason, for my Good… and I believe that God will give me the best. Oh… give me a break! He said, "It's understandable how you feel now, after going through such...but just try your best, do your best, and I will carry you through.." Stay tune!

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Sunday, January 2, 2011

010111

2011 has been great so far. Whatever has happened in 2010 are past. The ending of 2010 was indeed better than the start. The most amazing thing was I enrolled to Sot and graduate on this same year. And the miracles that happen after that. Even though I’m in constant struggle but each time I emerge stronger and better than before. I definitely grew up a lot from 2009. It was a year I made many courageous decisions and experienced the worst. Now the thought of what I went through in the past made me very sad. I can’t imagine how I manage to live till this day to be where I am…

I suddenly remember about the diary and really found it…memories of the past flood back. 2009 was also the year I got to know God better, and I found another group of friends. Beginning of 2010 I lost my bag. But end of 2010 I received a lot. I’m thankful I still have my wallet and cell group has helped me with some items too. Now I’ve received many gifts from people (big & small) and in many ways including the teaching of Word and spending time with baby.

God is still Good. Sweet. Faithful.

Later part of 2010 was like a brand new life. It was…hmm…Great! All these are precious moments. I miss and cherish each moment…

2011 is special. Because something is going to happen, soon. Visions & Dreams! The heavenly sound of “Amazing Grace” came from no where and I thought the angels are here and Jesus is back! I almost quickly rush out of the toilet to see..LoL

2011 I can do better. I cannot give up. Surely things will be better. Greater things have yet to come!
What are you dreaming? =)

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Wednesday, December 8, 2010

HUGsss

How should I start? It has been really long since I wrote something..

Hello World!

I’m here just to say that I need a HUG right now.
All I ever want, All I ever need, All I ever have is U.

I just want to smile and wish I can be better.
I just want to feel better..

Please Pray for me,

Thank you.

Goodbye World!

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Sunday, October 3, 2010

He has made everything beautiful in its time.

It’s one month after Sot. So far it has been a great month and I thank God for every beautiful memory. What makes it so happy is the gift. Giving gift is an act of love. I love the gifts. Gifts are special.
I need to work and study harder. Maybe it’s also time to take break and have some fun and outing. Looking forward for more adventure trip and of course shopping! Wooo.. excited now..

It’s a month of appreciating one another and serving others. God is good. Even when I’m bad, He is still good. But he who trusts in the LORD will be prospered.
Thank you God for all Your blessings. A God that heals. Isaiah 40:29-31

Most importantly, I miss BaBy! I wish I can spend more time with him and love him more. He likes to smile and gets excited, making me excited too! LoL
Yeah trusting Him and believing in better things…

And now abide Faith, Hope, Love, these three; but the greatest of these is LOVE.

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Monday, August 30, 2010

Start of a New Chapter

Sot ended. There is so much to say and I don’t know where to start. But one thing I know – I miss Sot. I misss every single moment.. from my morning marathon to the train ride. To be happy or sad? Though I’m glad I AM in sot but it’s also a very very heartbreaking period of time for me. Like what they say it is not the end but the beginning. It is the start of a renewed life, the birth of a dream, a fresh new start!

God, I want to thank you for these past six months. I still remember on my very first day I attended Bs, and now people life transform. I couldn’t get use and kept falling sick. And the wilderness experience. Each time the trials get more and more challenging till I seriously don’t know what else I can do and if there is still life ahead. There are times when I have nothing more…nothing else and I wonder if I should quit. I had no money to eat and travel. Once sis blessed me with a bread for dinner. And topped up a $20 to my travelling card. If not I could not go home. At that time, I truly experienced what is love and thankfulness. I was on the bus holding the small bread tightly and weeping. It’s just a small bun. But this bread (cost less than $2?) – one filled with love, kindness and goodness was priceless to me.

After a period of time, as condition gets worse, I eat lesser but I thank God that I did not get ill. In fact I’m surprise with the strength I received and that what keeps me alive is really by the power of the Spirit. I wish I can remember every single detail. So that I can exclaim how miraculously He brings me through. Many first times too! I'm sure more to come.

To quit halfway or not? Much disappointment, rejection… but when I am weak, I am strong. To add on betrayal, separation, a hell of nonsense… who cares? Fighting battles alone is really…WOW. A quitter never wins. A winner never quits. I want to breakthrough. I want to win through my struggles. Hence what came next really was like WOWwww. “Hell” “Valley of the Shadow of Death” ,you name it. Well I may not understand, but I trust that God has a purpose for me. Yes it is painful. But our God is our healer.

No matter what God is still faithful and He LOVES me. He knows all things and is powerful and He will always be with me. There are so many things to share! Before I close this chapter, let me go through everything once again – from standing on stage to receive the ‘gift’ from Pastor Kong, being an Sot graduate, empowered, equipped, responsibilities, salt & light…

Oh not forgetting my assignments and quite happy with my grades (surprised with my preaching score! Heeeee), ministry, overall everything is GOOD!!! Because God is Good. I may lose many things but I trust that He will give me even better things. What else? Oh there is so much to share I wish I can share them to bless others!

Am I transformed?
How have I changed?
Hmm…from the first day to the last day…

Greater things have yet to come. What is ahead is surely better than before and now. Yes I can still hope. Thank You God….. I love you too :)

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Sunday, July 25, 2010

Healing

One kid drew this for me. He calls it “Lei Gou”.

I’m so touched! Guess how old is he? :P
He’s so cute and funny. It’s really a joy to listen and talk to him.
I like the joy on their face. Happy just playing with the balloon and running around.. Who ever made them cry? Broken…unwanted…unloved…
A boy showed me his “essay”. He pulled me close to him and patted my back, and whispered something to me. I was shocked! He knew? The feeling is indescribable.
He’s really smart though he’s special.

Dear Jesus,

Please help me to love them all. Bring forth the light in me, that I may so shine and be their light…
Teach me in the way I should go
Show me Your Way.
Amen.

I will keep Praising You! You know and You know…

I will wait...
Tired. I need rest.

Come what may, I’ll kill you!!!

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Monday, July 12, 2010

P.E.A.C.E

Just thought of dropping by for a visit. So much has happened and I know God has planned it this way for me. From the first day till now, I have so much to express what I’ve been through. But I wish it would never end. I enjoy my mornings with Him, though how tired it is…how I learn obedience through suffering…the times when I went through hell, how I walk through the valley of the shadow of death…oh gosh I don’t want to think about it now…

But I’m so excited to share! I hope I can remember it forever…once in a lifetime. I love the Holy Spirit. I love my Angel. Today, I like the Peace. It has helped me to cool down and I feel happier. I also want to thank God for healing my painful heart. :)

Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. – John 14:27

Everything is still messy, but I really don’t want to think about it now. I just want to enjoy this Peace. Peace, please stay and be with me! Whatever that happens, surely I will pull through. Maybe I never know, maybe one day I’ll ask Him…I just don’t understand. Well perhaps time will tell.

I don’t want the burden and fear. Maybe I shouldn’t care anymore… Can’t love be happier? ~

Today I’m inspired by the 4 speakers. I will..
Dare to Dream
Have the Courage to Believe
A Heart to make it Happen!

(The above are not the points of his message, but my random words)
I will help others with their dream and make it come true!
And he mentioned they started with 5 members. All it takes is LOVE. Love is really the foundation of all things. A Great Leader =)
Reminded of what Pastor Kong said during AC…I will be super duper touched…he gives us the freedom to do what we want, make choices...despite knowing we may fail, make mistake along the way, whatever happens, even when we fall/fail know that he will be there to support us, be there for us, and pick us up again. WOW!!! Though he doesn’t know me personally, but this assurance just warms my heart.

Action!

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Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Hold my hands and walk with me

... keep trying every single day…even if I may keep failing, but one day I’ll walk through it. He’s there to keep telling me “No, I’m not alone in this” Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil. Because He is my Shepherd. And a True and Good Shepherd never leaves His sheep.

Even how much they attack, I’m still strong. I may lose my courage but I’m finding it back again… I got to learn to practice what I preach.

SO now, tears please stop, faith you come.
Now, I just got to force myself to eat and be strong again.
And work hard.

Please stop tears…I need to rest my eyes…

I WILL, I CAN. Because I am a child of God.

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Sunday, June 20, 2010

Faith, Hope, Love

我真的好想哭!
If blogging will send this out, I hope that it will be transmitted to Heaven...
Then I feel hopeful, maybe He will tell me or show me. I know you must be tired of this…but believe me, I’m really trying. And struggling, very difficult. Hence I can only blog…I often have this image I’m standing on this big open land. Many weapons come, flying everywhere. I’m hit, struck, but I did not fall, my body is shaking, going to collapse, but I did not fall. I am standing. It just reminded me of Ephesians 6:13.
In the end, I’m filled with blood, cuts, tormented till I couldn’t even recognize myself…but I’m still standing bravely. Even though I’m standing, but I’m internally tortured and bleeding.

Maybe someday I’ll be able to walk out…I don’t know when. Maybe soon. But it’s also this that I realize who are the people who truly love and care. Who I am to them. And who I am to them is different from who am I to God. Only perfect love comes from God. Maybe I did many nasty things to them. I never really know how to love them, or show them. I always want people to be real yet I am not true to them. I can only pray they will forgive me just as I forgive them. I’m really sorry I did not play my part very well.

But if I can have a chance, again, I want to start all over again…
Can I?

Thinking about it gives me a glimpse of hope. I want to start showering my love to them, every one of them…giving them happiness, experiencing joy and laughter…isn’t that what ‘I can’ do? But can I? Do we all share the same space for growing?

Many times I know He’s there to heal me. He just stood there quietly without saying anything…many times I wonder why…I hate it to face it all alone…but then I grow stronger each time…

People, please please give me a chance to tell you how much I love you. Even if you may not love me as much as I love you, I still want to thank you for playing a part and being so important in my life. Forgive me if I have hurt or made you angry in anyway…as I’m learning…it’s so difficult for me to do certain things but if that’s what you want…because there are so many things I don’t know.

Please be strong…jiayou…you can because they say you can. One day, you’ll be healed in Jesus' name!

I am Daddy's brave girl!!!

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Monday, May 31, 2010

Miss AC

I’m back from a 5 full days power packed conference! It was quite an experience for me..my first time AC & CGI. Something is happening in another realm, though I can’t see it now but I can feel it is coming. It’s about to happen, beyond what one can think or imagine! And I’m back to reality, work is piling up but what’s more important is the spiritual nourishment throughout the whole conference!
There’s so much to learn indeed. It’s kinda stretched (fortunately Sot provides a foundation), financially too but I’m thankful that I went though everything. It’s a test of tolerance, patience, strength and faith.
I like the atmosphere of love and order. I thought it would be a chaos with mass of people everywhere, but I’m amazed by the discipline and leadership of the church. Thumbs up for all the staff, volunteers, ushers, security and everyone who played a part to make it a Wowwow. Serving with the China delegates was fun. I finally know how far I can with my language and the characters. Well I think I did pretty well, they were thankful and rather independent so not much of a problem. I wore the gown when serving at the Sot booth. Haha some of them even took pictures with me.

Although most of the time was spent queuing, but I’m thankful to be able to queue with my cg and friends. It’s scary to queue alone…well God is with me anyway… Fighting for Hall 8 =)
The opening with the Parade of Nations was like WOW! It was very grand and formal. Serious yet fun. At the end of the day my throat was a little hurt from screaming. First day is usually the most exciting and next day I was so tired. Finale was a blast! But it’s only through such time there’s breakthrough. I’m growing stronger day by day. Blessed by speakers like A.R.Bernard, Steve Munsey, Phil Pringle, Yonggi Cho, Reinhard Bonnke, Pastor Kong.
I only managed to attend 2 electives. Creative Preaching and Women’s Ministry. Yea I’m learning how to preach and how to be a woman.

I also began to understand certain things and the hearts of men. Who are the people you can trust, who is there for you at your darkest hour, how strong can a person be…etc
ATTACKS,
ATTACKS,
and ATTACKS!
and it’s crazy! I got to be strong in my decision. God, I’m trusting You. I believe I can do it. Perfect Love casts out all fears.
Everything’s gonna be all right, and good. Amen.

Why are certain things like that?

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Thursday, May 13, 2010

It's gonna be ALL GOOD

I need a MIRACLE now.
I wonder how I’m going to overcome and climb over this hurdle and obstacle.
I seriously don’t know.
For the first time in my life, I’m really at a loss…

God, I don’t know what to do…and I don’t want to face this alone.
I don’t know what will happen.
GOD…..

I can right? I always do my best right? I can still walk on, a little step by a time right?
I don’t have to be afraid right?

But I feel so no strength now……

What should I do?

……….

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Monday, May 10, 2010

Walls

This post is very interesting because I was crying in the shower room and kneeled there not knowing what to do, but the thought of blogging motivated me to complete my shower. My stomach feels better now, but I can’t be agitated. I got to calm down...
It is almost a month since I’ve updated. Straight after that is a week of MPM. I’m surprised that I’ve endured through…Next was my second time attending Leaders’ Meeting. I don’t know why every time I was sick during the meeting and during the audition as well. Body..please be strong…okok?

Then I went to visit darling, but he was sleeping. I miss him.
And I finally went shopping. And I’m sooooo Happy! It was grrreat!
Ok back to why I was crying.
I’m really tired and drained. It feels like all your juice been sucked clean and you really don’t want to do anything. The past week I’ve been trying so hard, working hard but I don’t see any light out of it yet. Is a ‘thank you’ enough?

When you trust someone too much, it hurts. Now I know the fear. Today the speaker mentions about the spirit of rejection. SO what so what so what? Nobody will share your success or failure with you.
(ouch..stomach..)

Ok…cool down… I guess it’s time to let go. “I surrender all…I surrender all…” Even if it hurts, even it’s unfair, even if it’s crazy…because of LOVE.

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Tuesday, April 6, 2010

The story of Faith

我该怎么办?

I really don’t know what to do. My faith has to overcome my fear that’s attacking every now and then.
More and more coming up…and time runs. We all need to keep moving and growing. When you don’t grow, you die! And this kind of death is slow, it tortures the mental, your emotions then your flesh…not to mention spiritual..

I never expect what life can brings and to be in such state…perhaps I can only receive the consolation prize of being able to share and counsel to people who are going through what I’m going through at this moment…
Life is not the same ever since I decided to walk that route. It gets even different ever since I’m born again. It seems to get even more trials and tribulations, but strangely there seem to be a hidden purpose behind everything.

Choices. We all make them, do we? Poor or good I don’t know…I’m still living out my choices. Till now I wonder… by right, by what 90% of people would do, by nature, by reality, by common sense I shouldn’t do this. Look, I bearing the consequences now. I’m putting my all to this 10%. I have to risk it all and choose to believe I am and should be where I am now. 10%!!! Will you give me a miracle and save me? Ignite the fire in me and let me live again?

There’s no escape to this. There’s no easy way out. I just got to walk through it. Yes, I'm struggling. Scolding, angry, no compassion, not understanding, rejected…it hurts! But please forgive them for they don’t know. This is cross bearing. Being whipped, beaten and carrying the cross alone…the excruciating pain of being nailed…mocked…where you have the choice…

Today I saw something I never seen before. Beautiful Heaven!!! It’s very clear and pure…powerful! He told me many things. This is exciting. I will be very happy if they all come to past! I keep thinking about Baby. I miss him…owwwww Baby I wanna Love Love Love you…I like the way you look at me! You’re like a huge sausage~ *kiss

Breakthrough Easter :) Yea! More breakthroughs to come.
I am official born again on 28/03/10. A brand new life. Thank you…

WHEN MY WORLD WAS IN DARKNESS
YOU SPOKE YOUR WORD
NIGHT TURNED INTO DAY
YOUR BEAUTY FILLED THIS PLACE

WHEN MY WORLD STOOD IN SILENCE
YOU FILLED MY HEART
WITH SONGS THAT NEVER END
FOREVER I WILL PRAISE

TO THINK THAT THE UNIVERSE
COULD NOT WITHHOLD YOUR GLORY
YOU CHOOSE TO LIVE IN ME
I'M SO AMAZED

(AND) I WORSHIP YOU LORD
MY LIFE IN YOU RESTORED
HERE IS MY HEART
MAKE IT YOUR SANCTUARY
FOR NOBODY ELSE
BUT JESUS ONLY (YOU)

YOU ARE FAITHFUL AND TRUE
GLORIOUS LORD
ALL MY LIFE
IT IS YOU I ADORE
YOU'VE TOUCHED MY SOUL
COMPLETED MY WORLD I SURRENDER TO YOU

I’m so amaze why…when no one believes me, or love me… I’m so touched!

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Friday, March 26, 2010

Got to Find a Way Out

I don’t know why I’m feeling this way…but I got so much to say…
Feeling so tired and my throat hurts. Initially it hurts till I can’t even utter any sound. Just swallowing alone can kills! Even now it still hurts, and **cough cough..
With the almost fainting experience with the whole body aches and felt weird. The past two weeks been seeking medicine and praying for healing.
Maybe I’m just tired and needs to sleep. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak.
And maybe I’m a little sad and disappointed. Everyone is so busy and the love grows cold. I feel so cold and dry…

And recently things came crashing over…have thou forsaken me? Had a great fun with the cg game, but later I was reminded of the super burden I’ve got to face coming days…Did a six hour lesson back to back which I felt so XXXXXX after. I hate to squeeze so many lessons together (especially not when I’m super exhausted after one whole week of ‘torture’, I want to enjoy and not hate it).

And I’m a bit frustrated by his change of attitude. Give me a break! Bleah~
Felt super sick at the Leaders’ Meeting and there’s also OPM!
Tuition is closed, which means……….
Yes I am worried, fearful, scared, depressed.. I don’t know how to pay for the next school fees due in less than two weeks time! And many more sacrifices… And the so many expenses coming along… And I’m still in debt!!!

Felt her unfriendly and unkind tone. Like it’s crazy to go Bible School, not understanding that my Saturday is fully packed and insisting certain things. Trying to squeeze me out with your mockery words. What’s wrong with commitments? I’m really torn between the limitations… To serve or to survive? Why must it be overlapping and in the end I got to make a choice? And ‘A’ choice.
Which means now I’m totally loss of what I should do. I can only pray and hope for a miracle. BUT I still don’t know why I’m feeling the way I am now. I find it hard to smile or laugh…but so easy to cry. .

Saw this really sweet nice Bible at Precious Moments and I want it so much!!! It’s NKJV too and the words are really beautiful, easy to study! There’s also cute pictures and quotes and it’s light too! My initial response was that if I have it, I would be super motivated to read and finish it! They are really catchy and I could imagine myself bringing it to school and holding it everywhere I go!!! The sales assistant kept staring at me and was already on 'stand by' mode.. Unfortunately I did NOT get it though it’s already discounted.. =((

And why do bad things happen together? I lost my phone pouch suddenly. And it’s really suddenly because it really just disappeared while I was on the bus. And my bag broke! And my ear piece spoilt! And I got no more radio (sis took it away)…that means I got to ‘fast’ from praise and worship!!! And no music kills the spirit. Which I absolutely hate it! Why do I lose so many things this year? And it’s only beginning of the year!!!

Yeah… HELP! **cough cough..

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Wednesday, February 24, 2010

The Irresistible

That was a special day. Even though I was tired in all ways but I already felt very excited. It was like pre-planned…and yeah…

I want to remember this day.

原來快樂是一种回憶。。
謝謝你陪了我那一天﹐讓我能一時拋開一切好好的放松
好久好久我沒那麼瘋狂過。
謝謝你的禮物﹐我好開心。。我。。我好期待。。
幸福原來可以很简单。。

I really enjoyed the KTV session. Towards the end, I hope I can sing continuously in that space. It ended off with ‘Hui Jia’ which was my most challenging moment of the day. WoW!
Was that me?

Enjoyed watching and playing the ‘game’. It was kinda addictive.
Thank you for the Sweet Blessings. I love them.
Thank God for all the wonderful moments and blessings. The once in a blue moon experience.

I shouldn’t worry so much.
I should let go of the burden.

First time is like the fireworks. You want to capture the beautiful moment forever and dwell in the splendor… It’s only when it becomes dull and normal that you begin to appreciate it. Even at that time you may not even think it is anyway special. Regardless if you cherish it, you long for it again.

It was a typical outing. Yet natural and fun. And memorable. When I see the blessings, I will smile =))

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Saturday, February 20, 2010

Bruised.

My head is super pain…feels like it’s going to burst anytime.
It’s unfair.
It’s evil.

I want to cry my heart out…I want it to stop…I hate it…
We’re just a puppet under someone’s control. When it says start you got to move and entertain the audience, then when it ends you get abandon aside. When you want to move your right hand, they move your left leg. You won’t get to decide anything. We’re directed under the director’s command. When the audience enjoy, they get the reward, when it’s a lousy play, the puppet gets condemn forever…

Lukewarm. So what?
When you get high and excited, they pour cold water on you. When you’re cold, they light you up, heating you in flames that never quench…
You get to go nowhere.

Matthew 12:20

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Sunday, February 7, 2010

Be Brave

I’ve learnt a precious lesson that I’ve made a mistake that cost me so much! And I’ve paid such a high price! This is a lesson worth going through but it’s definitely not a good feeling. I would never want to. It’s painful, scary……
It’s too late. Now I got to bear responsibilities for what I have and not done. I got to live and love with myself for who I am. I got to face the criticism from my loved ones. I got to withstand all the negative and disappointment. Being deeply rejected and handle all these alone. I seriously don’t know what to do or think.

Many times I got to make the choice to sit there crying or stop and do something. Sometimes I didn’t even make a choice…
People who know me are super irritated…they are either way too busy to care if not too annoyed by my nonsense.

I just need a space to express out my fear. I just got to accept what has happened and be happy. Happiness is really a good feeling.

I want to be happy.
I want to be happy, again.

I just want to sleep and hope for a peaceful tomorrow…

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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Sunday, January 31, 2010

Through it All

I hate to go through this every week! No…every day. I want to stop this torture. Please…
What happens when you’re at the dead end, absolutely dead?

I pray that You will heal my sickness. I pray that the pain will stop. I pray that one day it will be all over… No more of it anymore! Complete healing power!

Nobody knows but You. Who can help me but You? Please heal me. Hear my desperate cry…!!! Stop the attack!

I need Hope…Peace…Love…Most of all my Faith.

Take away all the burdens…
Get away fear!

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness

And I look to You
And I wait on You

I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness

And I look to You
And I wait on You

I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go

I'll sing to You Lord
A hymn of Love
For Your faithfulness to me
I'm carried in everlasting arms
You'll never let me go
Through it all

Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Through it all…Through it all
You’re always there…

I’ll hide in You. Amen.

Labels: Current Affair, Music

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

BEAUTIFUL LIFE

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

A Brand New Life

It is never fun to be corrected. In fact, at the time it is always painful. But if we learn to obey by being corrected, we will do right and live at peace.

Hebrews 12:11

Thank You for this lesson today.

If you are guided by the Spirit, you won't obey your selfish desires. The Spirit and your desires are enemies of each other. They are always fighting each other and keeping you from doing what you feel you should.

Galatians 5:16-17

I'm sorry.

And because we belong to Christ Jesus, we have killed our selfish feelings and desires. God's Spirit has given us life, and so we should follow the Spirit.

Galatians 5:24-25

Sweet Forgiveness =)

Labels: Current Affair

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

Love Letter

Sweetest Devotion

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***HUGsss***

He has made everything beautiful in its time.

Start of a New Chapter

Healing

P.E.A.C.E

Hold my hands and walk with me

Faith, Hope, Love

Miss AC

It's gonna be ALL GOOD

Walls

The story of Faith

Got to Find a Way Out

The Irresistible

Bruised.

Be Brave

Through it All

A Brand New Life

About Me

HUGsss