BEAUTIFUL LIFE
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Faith, Hope, Love
我真的好想哭!
If blogging will send this out, I hope that it will be transmitted to Heaven...
Then I feel hopeful, maybe He will tell me or show me. I know you must be tired of this…but believe me, I’m really trying. And struggling, very difficult. Hence I can only blog…I often have this image I’m standing on this big open land. Many weapons come, flying everywhere. I’m hit, struck, but I did not fall, my body is shaking, going to collapse, but I did not fall. I am standing. It just reminded me of Ephesians 6:13.
In the end, I’m filled with blood, cuts, tormented till I couldn’t even recognize myself…but I’m still standing bravely. Even though I’m standing, but I’m internally tortured and bleeding.
Maybe someday I’ll be able to walk out…I don’t know when. Maybe soon. But it’s also this that I realize who are the people who truly love and care. Who I am to them. And who I am to them is different from who am I to God. Only perfect love comes from God. Maybe I did many nasty things to them. I never really know how to love them, or show them. I always want people to be real yet I am not true to them. I can only pray they will forgive me just as I forgive them. I’m really sorry I did not play my part very well.
But if I can have a chance, again, I want to start all over again…
Can I?
Thinking about it gives me a glimpse of hope. I want to start showering my love to them, every one of them…giving them happiness, experiencing joy and laughter…isn’t that what ‘I can’ do? But can I? Do we all share the same space for growing?
Many times I know He’s there to heal me. He just stood there quietly without saying anything…many times I wonder why…I hate it to face it all alone…but then I grow stronger each time…
People, please please give me a chance to tell you how much I love you. Even if you may not love me as much as I love you, I still want to thank you for playing a part and being so important in my life. Forgive me if I have hurt or made you angry in anyway…as I’m learning…it’s so difficult for me to do certain things but if that’s what you want…because there are so many things I don’t know.
Please be strong…jiayou…you can because they say you can. One day, you’ll be healed in Jesus' name!
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