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Monday, August 30, 2010

Start of a New Chapter

Sot ended. There is so much to say and I don’t know where to start. But one thing I know – I miss Sot. I misss every single moment.. from my morning marathon to the train ride. To be happy or sad? Though I’m glad I AM in sot but it’s also a very very heartbreaking period of time for me. Like what they say it is not the end but the beginning. It is the start of a renewed life, the birth of a dream, a fresh new start!

God, I want to thank you for these past six months. I still remember on my very first day I attended Bs, and now people life transform. I couldn’t get use and kept falling sick. And the wilderness experience. Each time the trials get more and more challenging till I seriously don’t know what else I can do and if there is still life ahead. There are times when I have nothing more…nothing else and I wonder if I should quit. I had no money to eat and travel. Once sis blessed me with a bread for dinner. And topped up a $20 to my travelling card. If not I could not go home. At that time, I truly experienced what is love and thankfulness. I was on the bus holding the small bread tightly and weeping. It’s just a small bun. But this bread (cost less than $2?) – one filled with love, kindness and goodness was priceless to me.

After a period of time, as condition gets worse, I eat lesser but I thank God that I did not get ill. In fact I’m surprise with the strength I received and that what keeps me alive is really by the power of the Spirit. I wish I can remember every single detail. So that I can exclaim how miraculously He brings me through. Many first times too! I'm sure more to come.

To quit halfway or not? Much disappointment, rejection… but when I am weak, I am strong. To add on betrayal, separation, a hell of nonsense… who cares? Fighting battles alone is really…WOW. A quitter never wins. A winner never quits. I want to breakthrough. I want to win through my struggles. Hence what came next really was like WOWwww. “Hell” “Valley of the Shadow of Death” ,you name it. Well I may not understand, but I trust that God has a purpose for me. Yes it is painful. But our God is our healer.

No matter what God is still faithful and He LOVES me. He knows all things and is powerful and He will always be with me. There are so many things to share! Before I close this chapter, let me go through everything once again – from standing on stage to receive the ‘gift’ from Pastor Kong, being an Sot graduate, empowered, equipped, responsibilities, salt & light…

Oh not forgetting my assignments and quite happy with my grades (surprised with my preaching score! Heeeee), ministry, overall everything is GOOD!!! Because God is Good. I may lose many things but I trust that He will give me even better things. What else? Oh there is so much to share I wish I can share them to bless others!

Am I transformed?
How have I changed?
Hmm…from the first day to the last day…

Greater things have yet to come. What is ahead is surely better than before and now. Yes I can still hope. Thank You God….. I love you too :)

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Monday, May 31, 2010

Miss AC

I’m back from a 5 full days power packed conference! It was quite an experience for me..my first time AC & CGI. Something is happening in another realm, though I can’t see it now but I can feel it is coming. It’s about to happen, beyond what one can think or imagine! And I’m back to reality, work is piling up but what’s more important is the spiritual nourishment throughout the whole conference!
There’s so much to learn indeed. It’s kinda stretched (fortunately Sot provides a foundation), financially too but I’m thankful that I went though everything. It’s a test of tolerance, patience, strength and faith.
I like the atmosphere of love and order. I thought it would be a chaos with mass of people everywhere, but I’m amazed by the discipline and leadership of the church. Thumbs up for all the staff, volunteers, ushers, security and everyone who played a part to make it a Wowwow. Serving with the China delegates was fun. I finally know how far I can with my language and the characters. Well I think I did pretty well, they were thankful and rather independent so not much of a problem. I wore the gown when serving at the Sot booth. Haha some of them even took pictures with me.

Although most of the time was spent queuing, but I’m thankful to be able to queue with my cg and friends. It’s scary to queue alone…well God is with me anyway… Fighting for Hall 8 =)
The opening with the Parade of Nations was like WOW! It was very grand and formal. Serious yet fun. At the end of the day my throat was a little hurt from screaming. First day is usually the most exciting and next day I was so tired. Finale was a blast! But it’s only through such time there’s breakthrough. I’m growing stronger day by day. Blessed by speakers like A.R.Bernard, Steve Munsey, Phil Pringle, Yonggi Cho, Reinhard Bonnke, Pastor Kong.
I only managed to attend 2 electives. Creative Preaching and Women’s Ministry. Yea I’m learning how to preach and how to be a woman.

I also began to understand certain things and the hearts of men. Who are the people you can trust, who is there for you at your darkest hour, how strong can a person be…etc
ATTACKS,
ATTACKS,
and ATTACKS!
and it’s crazy! I got to be strong in my decision. God, I’m trusting You. I believe I can do it. Perfect Love casts out all fears.
Everything’s gonna be all right, and good. Amen.

Why are certain things like that?

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Friday, January 1, 2010

Goodbye 2009 ~

It's a brand new year with a brand new start! This 2009 is a really really down year for me. This morning He brought me back to the time when the greastest miracle happened to me which I witness, but I think it was back in 08. I was prayed for. At Bras Basah. I remember the First Love. The First Joy. I wanted to proclaim to the whole world of this joy I had.
Why couldn't life be that simple? All I want is just a stable and normal life where I can live healthily and grow well. It doesn't matter if I have only a little, just enough...but yet it's so difficult. Even if I wanted to go for the study, I got to tell Him how much I want to this year, how I got to beg in tears, how if I am able I'm willing to do anything...
I just hope there's someone I can pray with everyday until I breakthrough. Someone who is willing to talk to me and give me the courage to live on. I don't want to cry everyday like this. Everyday is a torture. Because 2 is better than 1.
2009= ?? buckets of tears

Why is it that it can be so easy for others but just simply difficult to near impossible for me? It has always been 2 options: either to live or die. Nearing the end, I've reached a stage where it doesn't matter...either way I'm dead. Unless there's a miracle.

I realized that the solution which I concluded is something which I cannot control. First you can't force someone to love you. You can't control the nature of life. You can't change yourself overnight. While they dance in joy, I weep in sorrow. Because I'm not perfect.

Once and for all, let's walk through 2009 and say goodbye~
I thank God that it's this year I make many sacrifices and started on a journey with Him. From the beginning I was struggling at work and choosing to leave and also then that I am able to be more committed to service. Before that in 2009 the kind of life I was living, trying to overcome many many hurdles...how I got to know a new kind of people - spiritual. How I start to adapt to a renewed life. How some of them used to encourage me to bravely walk this far. How I made certain decisions...risked my all...It a year where I lost my home and found again. The time when I got depression, cried, super weak..I remember that time he told me it's like the stock market. Can it get any lower? Fortunately it always ride out all the crisis overtime. The time when I realized no one can help me except myself...praying...crying...wanting to kill myself...telling myself I want an end. Being rejected, being a fool, suffering alone, heartaches...

However God is still faithful...though many downs but there's still some ups. Did many new things and shared many memories with people especially my cg. Though I met many evil people, I believe He is still protecting me from what could be even worse! And 'no weapon formed against me shall prosper'! The greatest enemy is myself!!! When I'm fearful, I would always look forward to the place of love...to be hugged...to be free of all the burdens...the outings...the KinderJoys, cards, letter, games...the zone camp, birthday celebrations, I hope I can remember them all forever!

2010, I hope I won't be lonely anymore. It will be exciting and fun. I just want to be happy. Happy no matter what. I want to fall in love with my new life once again. I want to love my God whole heartedly and love my people fervently.

He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in their hearts, yet so that man can't find out the work that God has done from the beginning even to the end.
Ecclesiastes 3:11

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Sunday, July 5, 2009

Blessings

It’s such a special day today! The cooling weather, fresh air, peaceful moments, eating the cake, many wishes…and I’m not tired!!! Not anymore!!! I wish there’s never a tomorrow. I wanna thank everyone and my lovely Heavenly Father for the wonderful time and blessing. 希望大家开心!! Love you all =) *hugs
Captured all of yesterday’s memory…we went to so many places haahaa.
JuLy – The Unique Month! Can it not be once a year?

The river that cleanse past, brings healing and refreshes us! So looking forward…
Hehe the game was rather innovative and fun too bad did not complete. Took some weird pose pictures then kept running around..reminded of those Taiwan variety. Went around in search of food and drink. Walked quite a distance and finally arrived our destination at ECP. Outdoor activities by the beach! Walked to PP for dinner.

It’s a new start now. New set of footprints. Hold tight. Please don’t let go. All I want is just to…… "Take me where You want".
Give up? Does it really benefit? No..no I don’t want to worry now. STOP!
Back to a fan. Cheers. You only feel it when you are the one. But the reaping is always sweet no matter the outcome. If I really do it, will you support me? Is that still a dream?

Tell you a secret: I’m collecting smiley. Each week at least one. So far it is!! It represents something *winks. I hope this will continue. I want MORE!!!

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Sunday, June 28, 2009

Screaming II

It has been tiring days. Unexpected. Heartbreaking.
Trials..Tests..

Why have You forsaken me?
What is this Love?

It is not over. You just need Faith…
Two become One. Even though I wish I can have both. I know I’ll just miss you. I hope you understand.

Just move on…for I’m too weary…

Camp was cool! Team spirit – Cheers – Leaders
Games with cg in the rain. “Water Game”
The unity, bonding and care…the brothers were really man! Feels so proud of them. Our clan did a wonderful funny commercial…sang like never before. After the finale our own tribe walked around the island. Cracking jokes and sharing.
"Well Done" everyone ~

Sometimes you just want more…
Please Kill it before it gets out of control…

Will you stop? Ahhh...

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Friday, March 27, 2009

Train Ride

There’s so much to say! So many things that happen in yet 3 days again. How many 3 days are there? Perhaps it’s coming…real soon…

I can do all things through Him who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13

The seminar was rather impactful. Though it overshot but it was a great experience.
The session was quite fun with some moments of apprehension. Discussions quite satisfying, ideas flowed easily. We even went out under the hot sun in search of the activity place. Eating together, chatting and knowing one another =)

The best part so memorable which I’ve been wanting to share was the role-play! Woo even my heart keeps beating now that I’ve recalled! I was the third one chosen! My mind was totally blank as to whatever was I going to conduct?? Once again prayer really amazes me…in less than a minute I was called back into the room. I was very surprised with myself too! The only part was the ‘reading to see what’s next’ part that cooled down the atmosphere a little… Once again reminded of the past being with them…trying to get their attention…speaking those words lol…
The previous 2 participants 'got away' quite easily, but when it was my turn they started those 'nasty' stuff..Wahaha >< it wasn't that nervous, then broke off into laughters.

I was so shocked with the comments too. Handles well? Now is to work on familiarizing with the process. It ended early that means I could go back to rest early.
Pc was wonderful too! Soundsss :) Ooppss..time is running out…

Long meetings & discussions. Cleared some, more with no conclusion…but I’ve got a blessing from treats =))
ML came to keep me company. Thanks for your encouragement =)
Headaches…can’t sleep…

Loads & Loads…hope all will be settled by this month…

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Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Heavenly Dream

Budgets, budgets and more budgets!!! Aarrrggghhh…
Such a headache…Just can’t figure out, need to seek a confirmation. The more fear and risk, the better. It is the good training ground to get ready for more. “Kill the flesh..kill the flesh!!” ……

I’m glad and thankful that during my darkest time people are there, I spent it with my loved ones. Feels so in love…guess I would have died or still in a spiral of despair if not for my beloved God and people. Enjoyed the service and drama. Now I begin to enjoy singing freely. Next came pm. It was really one week where I felt in Heavenly World. I remembered on the first day I felt so sick and so distracted and uneasy. Throat really hurts. I couldn’t get the stamina! Kinda depressing. Fortunately was comforted after…

Each day got better and better. Wednesday was a special day. After enjoying my outing with sis, went to decorate cupcakes. What happened throughout that night till morning got me giggling till now. Whatever plans, God is still in control.

Went to visit Megan. Hope she’ll be fine and grows healthily. She likes to sleep and will cry if carried or awaken. Calm and peaceful baby. Yeah I’m coming to see you soon!

(Oh yea I'm 1 year old) *wink wink

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Friday, December 26, 2008

mErRy MeRrY Xmas

I am so so happy today! Their joyous face when they open the presents, the light that shines in their heart…the squeal of delight to “try” the pressies…
The happiness that comes from being thoughtful. The sense of achievement of being “valuable” despite the effort…it’s worth it after all…
Giving seems so difficult but yet it’s indeed better than receiving. Really beginning to understand the meaning of being a blessing to people…

That’s not all! Really enjoyed the dinner with them just now, the feel of family gathering really warms my heart! They’re like so cute and funny and the silly jokes just liven up the whole atmosphere. Where I don’t care and it’s just ME!

Service drama was touching too and the meaning of Christmas was felt. This idea, sowed in my thought, put to action and reaped in my heart. 2008 Christmas - a day of love, happiness, blessing and joy through giving and ‘sacrificing’. Gonna remember this day.

My toe is better now. Despite getting injured I still hope for more of such outing. It was just an accident and not a bad activity. This pain I still remember how fearful it was to change the dressing and to pull out that cotton from my flesh. Sitting there for hours little by little…yet still painful and crying for help. “God save me, God save me” kept saying but only later when I finally pulled it out did I realize God was telling me to take a step of faith. “Pull it out and I will give you the strength to bear it all” He was waiting for me to do it so that He can start healing me. The days where I could not walk properly, limping around my journey to work, to class, squeezing in the crowded bus kept looking down to make sure nobody came near my toe. Ready to attack anyone, ready to protect my leg. Walking on one leg and getting bruised on that leg…worrying about going to work…scolded for being crazy for such “minor” injury…

But yet there’s always something to be grateful and joyful for. We love because He first loves us. Because of suffering and troubles do we realize how to cherish what we have.
Just one small candle it can light up the whole place. It only takes a spark to get a fire going and soon all those around can warm up in its glowing. How beautiful the place with thousands of candles glowing! And never look down on one small candle.

Praise God!!! Enjoyed all the family dining and gathering this season. Lots of photos and memories…catch up soon!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS

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Monday, September 22, 2008

We are Connected to Each Other!

Life is a surprise. When you lose certain things, you find other doors opened for you. It sounds risky, but the excitement overcomes all. Perhaps each road also means change. But all I know is that I will always remember those times. The joy and sorrow through that door. If given a choice, I would want to stay there. That used to be where I grow up, where I really go through love…

That day we went to start the program. I thought we could start something but she was rushing. It just made me realized the art of tolerance and patience is so precious. And I think no one would want to see this girl explode in fury. Anyway had a rare meet up with Liz and we were anticipating the arrival of Wei. (Found out only later it wasn’t) Later went with them to shop for their friend BD gift. At night he suddenly called and asked me out for dinner. As usual waited for ages…kept talking till past mid-night (waking up few hours time for work). Hope one day I can go back there.

Family dinner again! Was deliberating if I should rush down as wasn’t feeling so well. Even messaged my leader for help…well ended up happily. Me enjoying the mini food and number 19 drink (LoL winks ^^) I hope that action made them happy. We all shared the durian ice-cream again then looked at the gown. Yeah what am I gonna wear? Or when is my turn? Am I the joke or the joker?

Lunched with her. I guess I’ve fallen in love with her. We really complement each other. I really cherish the chance to dine together. I was crazy cleaning when she asked. Earlier on I asked my friend as I thought she won’t be coming. We walked silently…every moment is clear in my mind. I pray that our relationship will improve and blossom. God Bless her…

Dinner with Cia after work. Been losing appetite since when. Prefer food either spicy or sour. Shared that puky yoghurt. Went back in time to catch the drama. That entire day was stuck to the screen, wanted to blog about the information overload but too giddy and rush as gonna set off to check them out. I really pray for the right home…rush again but already late for the class. In the end we went for the sauna. Such a ‘cool’ experience! Also the steamy bath. Where there’s a will, there’s a Way. [random thoughts]

Had been thinking what she said. The stress is there…to serve. Crucial time indeed!
Last but not least, the second workshop was terrific! Previously was so sick…now I really enjoy myself. Games-warming up-recording. The message reminded me of a child in a family. Quite entertaining and felt more relaxed. Went to airport for dinner. Till now I could not get my appetite back. Ordered the celery slush and potato island. Waiter was really nice too. Next day I was really thankful able to manage alone. She finally called me like to check it out. Hahaha…so sweet of her for the food :) Tell me, just how can I show it to her?

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Wednesday, September 10, 2008

The Best is yet to Come

Wow it’s about two weeks, but that seems so long…First of all, please applause for the end of the battle. Next shall be the exciting updates…

Yesterday (today too, plus many tomorrows) was a blessed day. Woke up late and had my breakfast with lunch together. Prayed. Surprise. Miracle. We crafted out two plans. We were both thrilled with Plan A. We even tried playing at home. However due to good reason, it was postponed (feel bad for disappointing her)…Plan B in action! After those chores, we were ready to set off.

Cia even took pictures of the blooming flowers on the way out. I knew this was unlike any other time. In fact it was the first time we had such funny outing. She wanted the sun to tan. I just hope it won’t rain. I know that He is leading us…while waiting for the bus, snapped some pictures to reduce the time…We kept yawning and I was worried it would kill the fun…after some walking finally we arrived! Shared our wonderful subway meal together alone in the restaurant. That was the sweetest (cookie) meal. Being energized we went to rent our bikes. Thank goodness the whole process was quick and smooth. Ready, Set, Go! Sometimes I felt like stopping but just moved on, slowly. The beach, people, dogs, trees, sky, wind, weird smell – we are in heaven!!! There isn’t a drop of rain, no sun yet cool breeze with many beautiful clouds to admire! We had the same idea to stop at the jetty. That was when ‘heaven’ was being emphasized! This time we saw the sun. It was unlike the usual burning one but one so gentle and bright where the sunshine makes one feel warmth and love.

We sat at the bench and watched the ‘fishermen’ fished. One of them caught two huge fishes. OMG they were so pure like crystal…sad I told Cia I did not want to eat any fish that day. There was this man who wore formal suit fishing too…we had a good laugh. There’s also this Australian man riding with his dog standing in the basket…LOL
He went by us many times and we kept giggling wanting to snap it. Before he went back he stopped in front of us asking us if we have dogs and told us he wanted to find good owner. He has seven dogs in Australia! We also saw many airplanes taking off up into the sky. The sea was quite polluted, even underwear was floating about…

Such light-hearted scene. The joy and love of being in nature with the magnificent sun. On the way back, Cia was behind me. We walked further up and went for dinner at the food centre. Later our long awaited durian ice-cream!!! We sat there indulge in our own happiness. She accompanied me to get some toiletries before heading back to catch the show. That is the wonderful present.

The day before, Cia cooked all the vegetables and we shared a plate of greens for dinner. It’s amazing to see funny ideas in action. On Saturday, we went to eat Thai food. The sauce was nice, tom yam soup just spice up your appetite. Later Cia came to finish up and we ordered this Mango glutinous dessert. What was left was the poor rice. I was excited about the idea of buying donuts for them. (But kinda sad no one really appreciate) Cia bought the yoghurt. Two weeks ago, we also had our post birthday dinner for Cia at Pu Tian. Later went bowling and hey not bad skills for me! We played photo hunt. Addictive and fun. Could get heart attack if overdose. Felt relaxed after long work…

The workshop was a time where I gained knowledge and exposure to their background. All I want is practice and more practice now!!! Yes, I love my voice. I want my voice to shine. That Ktv session was just fantastic. I pray that God will help me overcome it. The best part was the rock song where we stood on the sofa singing and getting high. As time passed the songs got harder and harder. Haha

Had the study session in the open air area, good view and cooling. More to go…homework :P Lastly the battle was enjoyable. Fought to my last breath. Thanks for those who stand by me.

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Saturday, August 16, 2008

Breakthrough

Feel so tired but happy. My legs are in pain, eyes are popping out…nevertheless that was quite a breakthrough. That’s right, that should be the way. The talent quest was quite an experience. Being charged from morning all the way…’fighting’ the battle between physical and mental strength. I love my professional image…the last part ended with some gathering and jokes. I wanted to continue but my partner seemed so worn out already! ‘Ouch!’ (Aching everywhere) Arrg super tired but tomorrow is another exciting day awaits!

That song reminds me strongly about those times. I don’t really listen to that but recently memories just flood back. From the trip…will I have the courage back then if I go through all that again?

After the short training, I went back. She was not there. Somehow I feel there’s this subtle distance which I don’t know what it means. Each time I know her, I grow more amaze. That issue which I really want to know but pray silently she would initiate and announce the good news. Do I have to bear the loneliness? Anyway these 3 days was really cool! We ate at this romantic Jap restaurant to discuss the plan and chatting with them just brings me out of the mood. Natural and fun. It made me realized how much I’ve changed. Being and working with them is so exhilarating!

The workout was not enough. Rushed to class after that. It was fUnNy, but it was not funny! I ought to be more serious! Shopping was great too. Beautiful things are everywhere and temptation increases.. And yes time to sleep. *yawn

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Thursday, July 10, 2008

Birthday Baby

Birthday Baby

This is so exciting! Such sweet & sour July…had wonderful before, during and after celebration!!! :) :) :)
That evening met her to shop then later he came fetched me for the dinner. I had told him wanted some cool, fun and romantic place and trying new recipe. Once the door opened, “Wow beautiful…” It was too dark to capture anything.
“Cheers” with the red wine, great food! Presence of Fireworks will magnify the whole atmosphere. Exhilarating conversations…Love the bustling activities, people of all nations and background. The black, white, brown, yellow.. the brown even took care of the black making sure she is well-fed. Later he brought me back…

Despite such tough times, I learn to endure. And really means ENDURE. One of them is temptations. God sure has His way of surprises.
On that day I spent the time with my precious peoples. The talk was about what I was facing. Later I witnessed what I never ever in my life. (I weep silently too, all so heartbreaking) Then rushing around, hoping time will go slower.

Had steamy dinner with so many of them too. We cooked, talked, posed, walked, joked, laughed. Wondered why everyone was in this slow posing and walking. Next I saw this orange light lane glowing then heard the song…cool ‘gang’ atmosphere.

Had a second study session. Ordered this wasabi tuna sandwich with chips sort and this special green tea yet not so green drink. Had another surprise when suddenly in this people filled area this lovely love pinky cake appeared. The wind kept blowing the candle. LoL what humourous scene. We went out and I was so touched by all their effort. Thank you everyone. Love the present too. Finally faced my fear. And yes I WILL continue. I pray that I will work very hard, all those projects etc…

And the story continues…

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Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Play Time

Play Time

It has been quite meaningful past week. Long hours of activities, challenges to overcome…Even though I feel that it is not enough but I know I am growing. Singing is so fun! Acting to sing is even great!

The chalet was terrific too! Oh can’t wait to share…
It was rush initially but later so happy to meet them. Bought this cute slipper :)
We took the bus to Harbour Front and on the way was ‘entertained’. Later we went to buy drinks and stuff then took the train to the beach. The bus ride was cool with some ‘entertainment’ yet again.

Finally we arrived at the resort. The room was cool with roof top Jacuzzi and OMG the view at the top was so nice! (too bad did not capture it) Later we went to the beach to play Frisbee and ball. So happy! Been ages since ball games. It is really good to play with my fullest energy. Just imagine, the clear blue sky, clouds, sea, ships, nature, sand, people…Little Swallow loves the freedom!

Later we went up to walk and explore. I was sharing about my wish and we captured the most beautiful sunset scene! The fireworks add music to the night! First time is always so precious and memorable. We went for a swim after mid night. I still remember the feeling when I went down. Cold, strange and dark. Later to Jacuzzi, under the starry night, colourful surroundings, laughter and night activity. Even eating in it. After the shower, felt fresher. Tried to sleep on the stairs (by then everyone was lying in all position haha!) Doing things secretly when everyone is asleep is so exciting! LoL.

It would be so romantic with your loved one, even just lying on the shoulder feels so warm and safe. After sleeping, God led me to His place. Now the story just begins! Guess after some rest, it’s time for a brand new life! Everything would be new and fun. Many projects coming and I have faith in all of them!

Thank you everyone, Thank you God for everything! :p

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Sunday, June 8, 2008

Tough Time

Yo! Not another emo post lol. Those who have seen or been with me recently would ‘witness’ those emo moments…
It was a whole day (about 19hrs conscious) of activities yesterday. Yea I still crave for my wine…Woke up about 6 plus getting ready (miss performance) then reached early thus went to buy milk. The teacher was early too (he was sick, God Bless) and everything went peaceful till about after lunch. Sometimes I wonder if foods do kills? Maybe I’m getting restless…counting down and trying hard to concentrate. Maybe I’m not a good worker, maybe our expectation is different…whatever! I had enough of aches…

Yes feel that everyone sang very well and improve. When is my turn? Miss the days being up…smiling, rehearsing…Smiling? Hahaha
It has always been there. Each time is a different feel. Gosh…emo songs…

Long pause

I actually don’t know how to write out about this…omg
Anyway I like the whole concept. Relax to be entertained. Took some pictures…
Maybe I am drunk…I don’t know why I say or do the things I did. But how am I gonna make you understand? (Blog halfway, go chat)

That day was a miracle, I lost my MP pouch (perhaps I fell asleep in the bus and lost there) and went Sim Lim to find. I just know I will get it. I even called to ask and searched around. Just then I walked past this counter with some China phones and out of the blue asked God where I can find my pouch. Just then, this man asked me whether I want to look at it. I asked if they sell MP pouch. (I was already holding my MP since the first tried shop) I showed him and he said “yes”. They actually got the exact pouch for my kind of MP. I requested for a look and BINGO exactly the same. And guess what? It only costs $3! I don’t mind even paying $10 (the first shop sold some about that price). So thankful and happy!!! Within just 1 day…and the time I was given.. Thanks!!!

Goal for singing: Keeping strong and fit. I ought to be tougher. In all ways. I just know I will do it. Just like how I got a brand new pouch.

“Relationships are like a book, in that they are for learning.” - Marshall Sylver

Time heals? Never give up…faith in hope. Failed..again and yet again. Yes laugh if you want. The 4-letter word!.

Labels: Current Affair, Event, Fun and Party

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

BEAUTIFUL LIFE

Friday, May 30, 2008

Secret Life

Secret Life

I guess I’m gonna be lonely today. Looking forward for so many days..Dashed plans when this friend suddenly told me it’s too far. It’ll be so wonderful if we can meet up and relax in this city wonder…it’s not really about what we do but I’ll wish you’ll join me in this sweet indulgence and just to stop ‘work’ for 1 day. Yes, despite saying that but I can’t. LoL

Surprise that so much surprise keep coming today, now I’ve this great opportunity again and it’s killing me. I don’t know if he’ll call me again but I’m torn in between.
Went for this rare breakfast together and discuss plan to go KTV next week. I was like “Want to go sing never ask me lar?!!!” Hahaha (Anyway see if I can make it)

Yes it doesn’t feel good when hope=disappointment. Yes I know I should be happy, I am grateful for all the abundance and beautiful life. So many things to execute…stretch myself to the max. BUT my heart is calling out……has it heal? Is passion flowing?
Ok enough of Love. I guess all achievements also can’t win this special 4-letter word.

Let me just rest for this 1 day…to really let go and FEEL the magic. Let my Singing heals this renewed Heart…
Thank You.

Labels: Current Affair, Event

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

BEAUTIFUL LIFE

Saturday, March 29, 2008

Film Reel

Yo I am back…been a tiring day. My mood did not get better but it has somehow been fun and memorable. The point is not about the emotional attack, let’s move on…
Well everyone was rather stress and irritated and not feeling well. My mood was under fierce control too. Reminded of the CNY morning too haha
Man it was mad rush.
I went to grab a quick ‘food’ at subway and got ready. I knew they must be wondering what kind of hilarious act I got into…fortunately the atmosphere became lighter after their arrival. “I understand how anxious you are but I need my way out ok?”

Ladies and Gentlemen the photos will be out soon…can’t wait!
Yea did my work with Miss A and we talk about the stress for such event and the people involved etc. Haha
Thank God everything went smooth and God even gave us His Blessings!
Sigh ~ are these real? I can’t seem to digest all these and it was over like the blink of an eye. Kinda envy and link back to my state. Here I am missing what I can’t enjoy…
Overall it is a rare experience once in a lifetime. Seriously it’s an outsider POV. Guess only if I truly be-ing will I understand the experience.

Learnt to [take actions now] today. Hmm insightful. That’s about all folks. I don’t even know what I am writing…;p

Labels: Current Affair, Event

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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Goodbye 2009 ~

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Breakthrough

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