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BEAUTIFUL LIFE

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Come what may

It’s COMING!!! Really COMING!! Real Soon ~

Listening to all these classic super powerful heart blowing songs make them even more exciting! Just wish to sing again… miss those time on stage… those euphoric moments…

…Now comes Beyond…oohh something is stirring strongly in the heart…

Been feeling weird lately…weak…my body needs a break. Quite a breakthrough though.
I finally pass them!!! It was crazy but fun. Time tight and everyone was so tired at the end. I will remember our experience together =)

I hope that you’ll support me…please don’t react this way…I am only one person (though I also wish I can split into many parts and do many things) I’m sorry…

Back to class. Change! Place, feelings, People. Suddenly it feels like ten years ago when it’s barely years… Or is it me?

Another miracle this week! I thought… Thankful for the encouragements along the way… That day the ride was way too long for me to continue… felt so giddy and sick. Too hungry till I vomited…

Walk in with anxiety, Walk out in victory!

Astons was superb! Hope to visit there more often… then went to the soya shop for desserts! It was really a reward for me! Heh Heh

Faith – They will come to pass!!!!! When I can’t, You Can. (prays hard everything will turns out well)

Shopping anyone?

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

BEAUTIFUL LIFE

Friday, April 17, 2009

Gift: Healing

If blogging helps, may it take away all the pain...
If anything even helps…

I thought everything would be fine.

When there’s good surprise, there’s also bad one. BAD =(
(pray for good heart)

The ride, so full of up and down, spinning around going in all directions that’s beyond control…
Time – the Enemy!

It’s enjoyable but way too tough… I thought I could…
Can I still trust you?
Do you even support me?

Disappointed…
Can I not?
Why?!

~ ~ ~
Easter time was quite memorable. Went TM for meeting. The crowd was really “arrggg”.
Was too sick to shop. Wanted to buy bb tea before crossing the road, however it took how long to even cross the mini road! Rain drops pattering…crazy!

Went food court for dinner and shared food with QR. =)
Had to queue for over an hour before we could get in. We were quite ahead though.
Good drama. Good Friday. Peaceful Easter.

It was a time of rest but not a complete one…needs to Play more!!! =P
Went back to work on m9. Back on track. After this I really hope to be able to work with her all through.
(prays hard to be Strong)

City Dinner
GT BD surprise at his house. Hoo ~ real surprising

Upcoming: ViVo
(wishes to cross to Sentosa island to hide away)
...That beautiful beach…games…that night…bbq…sharing BD wish…midnight swim…people…slept on stairs…laughter…

Just seem so yesterday…Lost past… ='(

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

BEAUTIFUL LIFE

Friday, December 26, 2008

mErRy MeRrY Xmas

I am so so happy today! Their joyous face when they open the presents, the light that shines in their heart…the squeal of delight to “try” the pressies…
The happiness that comes from being thoughtful. The sense of achievement of being “valuable” despite the effort…it’s worth it after all…
Giving seems so difficult but yet it’s indeed better than receiving. Really beginning to understand the meaning of being a blessing to people…

That’s not all! Really enjoyed the dinner with them just now, the feel of family gathering really warms my heart! They’re like so cute and funny and the silly jokes just liven up the whole atmosphere. Where I don’t care and it’s just ME!

Service drama was touching too and the meaning of Christmas was felt. This idea, sowed in my thought, put to action and reaped in my heart. 2008 Christmas - a day of love, happiness, blessing and joy through giving and ‘sacrificing’. Gonna remember this day.

My toe is better now. Despite getting injured I still hope for more of such outing. It was just an accident and not a bad activity. This pain I still remember how fearful it was to change the dressing and to pull out that cotton from my flesh. Sitting there for hours little by little…yet still painful and crying for help. “God save me, God save me” kept saying but only later when I finally pulled it out did I realize God was telling me to take a step of faith. “Pull it out and I will give you the strength to bear it all” He was waiting for me to do it so that He can start healing me. The days where I could not walk properly, limping around my journey to work, to class, squeezing in the crowded bus kept looking down to make sure nobody came near my toe. Ready to attack anyone, ready to protect my leg. Walking on one leg and getting bruised on that leg…worrying about going to work…scolded for being crazy for such “minor” injury…

But yet there’s always something to be grateful and joyful for. We love because He first loves us. Because of suffering and troubles do we realize how to cherish what we have.
Just one small candle it can light up the whole place. It only takes a spark to get a fire going and soon all those around can warm up in its glowing. How beautiful the place with thousands of candles glowing! And never look down on one small candle.

Praise God!!! Enjoyed all the family dining and gathering this season. Lots of photos and memories…catch up soon!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

BEAUTIFUL LIFE

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Bleak

Just back from the workshop…after we parted, I’ve got this strong urge to cry. Any reason? No in particular. Just cry for what I’ve been going through. Such cold weather today…Sunday used to be a quiet and peaceful day…Special Sunday.
Totally hurt by her attitude. Reality just gave me a tight slap on my face. Hate it when I got so weak…What can cause such misunderstanding? Just one mistakes and your life is doom to ruin? The book of Ecclesiastes spoke to my heart. “Nothing makes sense. I have seen it all-nothing makes sense” (12:8) When we use our wisdom, knowledge and skill to get what we own, why do we have to leave it to someone who didn’t work for it?...
Wisdom…need so much…but it is senseless to be wise! Nothing makes sense, wisdom makes sense…it’s still better to be wise than foolish.

That day, I thought I would die. Even took a picture before I face the music, so afraid there’s no more chance. Ate at a Jap restaurant. Quite a relief. And I made it at the wedding. We accomplished so much in one day! At the end of the day, I was so tired that I couldn’t even walk and had to sleep immediately! Well it’s like once in a lifetime experience. Our family grows closer and Sunday was the breakthrough!! Praise God indeed. I wish there’ll be more holiday then we could spend time together. The breakfast, the pizza, then many outings…

I hope things will improve and get better. That day the lunch was great. Best was the Jap section. Aw.. miss Jap and that spaghetti. Wish that you’ll bring me there again. Family. Have been thinking about it recently. It’s really God’s blessing. Kids!!
Real tiring week…

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

BEAUTIFUL LIFE

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Baby!

This music just releases everything. Tears just flow freely…Yes I love them just as you. I never hear such kind of music before and the very sound just melts my heart like love flowing into your whole body.
Weariness seems to take a hold of me. True that those projects and upcoming events are gonna be fun and exciting but…
(wishing the song would continue)

Woman – hard to comprehend! Does she still hope our XXX would improve?
Random moment – While waiting for the bus, this skinny young boy suddenly zooms past me then tried to climb up the seat to go over the other side as his mom was calling him. It’s in this rectangular shape about his height. It looks like he’s going to fall and I saw him making quite an effort to balance. Plop ~ he landed safely and ran to his mom. Running back, this time more confident, he climbed again and stood on the long ‘chair’ raising his arms exclaiming, proud of himself. He looked at me vaguely then towards his mom and sister. All around was filled with energy, fun and agility. The mom was rather hostile towards him though. (as he occupied part of the seat) Boys!

We had lunch at this Jap restaurant but ate western. I ordered the salad. Harmonious relationship indeed. Just like what I always wish and now I witness. At night I went there alone (can’t keep missing like this). Perhaps already used to the heat so not much of dizziness just drained. And then the most bizarre thing happens. I actually lost the key. I keep on recalling what’s going on and walked back and forth like a million times but the key was nowhere to be found! Worse is the key belongs to my friend. The ‘workout’ already made me so drowsy then I almost fainted. Poor locker was cut. I even thought the key was in the locker…anyway what a crazy day! What a place. On the way back was a little shattered (the later part of the story was a scary confession and that I am forgiven!) The joy of being forgiven feels like a miracle! As previously similar experience happened.

She came over for discussion. I pray that all goes well. The time is coming and is here.
In the evening went to the Settlers. Food – Games – Enjoyment
So much laughter and fun together haha. I want to play!!! Need to ‘learn’ to play. Ended with girls vs. guys taboo. We stayed for a discussion of upcoming activities. SO many important things are coming…
I hope I have not forgotten about the mission. Has independence got to do with loneliness? A little breakthrough as I found out more about him. He showed me his baby’s photographs. Will she ever know?

他不爱我
牵手的时候太冷清
拥抱的时候不够靠近
他不爱我
说话的时候不够认真
沈默的时候又太用心
我知道他不爱我
他的眼神说出他的心
我看透了他的心
还有别人逗留的背影
他的回忆清除得不够乾净
我看到了他的心
演的全是他和她的电影
他不爱我
尽管如此
他还是赢走了我的心

Met up and dine together. Ordered this XXX steak with lobster soup and garlic bread. He ordered the salad and XXX juice for me. Cool ambience with nice music. He never failed to bring me to exotic places and we always have exhilarating conversation. Yeah…looking forward to the shopping, treats and movie! Hopefully be able to clear by this month. Also catch up the missing episodes of the baby!

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

BEAUTIFUL LIFE

Monday, September 22, 2008

We are Connected to Each Other!

Life is a surprise. When you lose certain things, you find other doors opened for you. It sounds risky, but the excitement overcomes all. Perhaps each road also means change. But all I know is that I will always remember those times. The joy and sorrow through that door. If given a choice, I would want to stay there. That used to be where I grow up, where I really go through love…

That day we went to start the program. I thought we could start something but she was rushing. It just made me realized the art of tolerance and patience is so precious. And I think no one would want to see this girl explode in fury. Anyway had a rare meet up with Liz and we were anticipating the arrival of Wei. (Found out only later it wasn’t) Later went with them to shop for their friend BD gift. At night he suddenly called and asked me out for dinner. As usual waited for ages…kept talking till past mid-night (waking up few hours time for work). Hope one day I can go back there.

Family dinner again! Was deliberating if I should rush down as wasn’t feeling so well. Even messaged my leader for help…well ended up happily. Me enjoying the mini food and number 19 drink (LoL winks ^^) I hope that action made them happy. We all shared the durian ice-cream again then looked at the gown. Yeah what am I gonna wear? Or when is my turn? Am I the joke or the joker?

Lunched with her. I guess I’ve fallen in love with her. We really complement each other. I really cherish the chance to dine together. I was crazy cleaning when she asked. Earlier on I asked my friend as I thought she won’t be coming. We walked silently…every moment is clear in my mind. I pray that our relationship will improve and blossom. God Bless her…

Dinner with Cia after work. Been losing appetite since when. Prefer food either spicy or sour. Shared that puky yoghurt. Went back in time to catch the drama. That entire day was stuck to the screen, wanted to blog about the information overload but too giddy and rush as gonna set off to check them out. I really pray for the right home…rush again but already late for the class. In the end we went for the sauna. Such a ‘cool’ experience! Also the steamy bath. Where there’s a will, there’s a Way. [random thoughts]

Had been thinking what she said. The stress is there…to serve. Crucial time indeed!
Last but not least, the second workshop was terrific! Previously was so sick…now I really enjoy myself. Games-warming up-recording. The message reminded me of a child in a family. Quite entertaining and felt more relaxed. Went to airport for dinner. Till now I could not get my appetite back. Ordered the celery slush and potato island. Waiter was really nice too. Next day I was really thankful able to manage alone. She finally called me like to check it out. Hahaha…so sweet of her for the food :) Tell me, just how can I show it to her?

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

BEAUTIFUL LIFE

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

The Best is yet to Come

Wow it’s about two weeks, but that seems so long…First of all, please applause for the end of the battle. Next shall be the exciting updates…

Yesterday (today too, plus many tomorrows) was a blessed day. Woke up late and had my breakfast with lunch together. Prayed. Surprise. Miracle. We crafted out two plans. We were both thrilled with Plan A. We even tried playing at home. However due to good reason, it was postponed (feel bad for disappointing her)…Plan B in action! After those chores, we were ready to set off.

Cia even took pictures of the blooming flowers on the way out. I knew this was unlike any other time. In fact it was the first time we had such funny outing. She wanted the sun to tan. I just hope it won’t rain. I know that He is leading us…while waiting for the bus, snapped some pictures to reduce the time…We kept yawning and I was worried it would kill the fun…after some walking finally we arrived! Shared our wonderful subway meal together alone in the restaurant. That was the sweetest (cookie) meal. Being energized we went to rent our bikes. Thank goodness the whole process was quick and smooth. Ready, Set, Go! Sometimes I felt like stopping but just moved on, slowly. The beach, people, dogs, trees, sky, wind, weird smell – we are in heaven!!! There isn’t a drop of rain, no sun yet cool breeze with many beautiful clouds to admire! We had the same idea to stop at the jetty. That was when ‘heaven’ was being emphasized! This time we saw the sun. It was unlike the usual burning one but one so gentle and bright where the sunshine makes one feel warmth and love.

We sat at the bench and watched the ‘fishermen’ fished. One of them caught two huge fishes. OMG they were so pure like crystal…sad I told Cia I did not want to eat any fish that day. There was this man who wore formal suit fishing too…we had a good laugh. There’s also this Australian man riding with his dog standing in the basket…LOL
He went by us many times and we kept giggling wanting to snap it. Before he went back he stopped in front of us asking us if we have dogs and told us he wanted to find good owner. He has seven dogs in Australia! We also saw many airplanes taking off up into the sky. The sea was quite polluted, even underwear was floating about…

Such light-hearted scene. The joy and love of being in nature with the magnificent sun. On the way back, Cia was behind me. We walked further up and went for dinner at the food centre. Later our long awaited durian ice-cream!!! We sat there indulge in our own happiness. She accompanied me to get some toiletries before heading back to catch the show. That is the wonderful present.

The day before, Cia cooked all the vegetables and we shared a plate of greens for dinner. It’s amazing to see funny ideas in action. On Saturday, we went to eat Thai food. The sauce was nice, tom yam soup just spice up your appetite. Later Cia came to finish up and we ordered this Mango glutinous dessert. What was left was the poor rice. I was excited about the idea of buying donuts for them. (But kinda sad no one really appreciate) Cia bought the yoghurt. Two weeks ago, we also had our post birthday dinner for Cia at Pu Tian. Later went bowling and hey not bad skills for me! We played photo hunt. Addictive and fun. Could get heart attack if overdose. Felt relaxed after long work…

The workshop was a time where I gained knowledge and exposure to their background. All I want is practice and more practice now!!! Yes, I love my voice. I want my voice to shine. That Ktv session was just fantastic. I pray that God will help me overcome it. The best part was the rock song where we stood on the sofa singing and getting high. As time passed the songs got harder and harder. Haha

Had the study session in the open air area, good view and cooling. More to go…homework :P Lastly the battle was enjoyable. Fought to my last breath. Thanks for those who stand by me.

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

BEAUTIFUL LIFE

Thursday, August 28, 2008

By the Sea

It isn’t good feeling sick. It makes one drowsy and tired. All those plans put on halt. Perhaps it’s the rain…walking in the rain. And it kills the mood to sing or outdoor activities. And I’m trying to do all I can to stay awake and work it out…

That night, we went to this cool romantic boat for dinner. Due to the after-rain we could not go up the open area. I saw the fishes swimming under while dining. The view was magnificent. I saw the vast sky, clear moon, felt the cold breeze and listened to the sound of the waves. It was dark and ‘scary’ (figuring where I was in the dark ocean). Nevertheless it was great to be refreshed after the long day.

Another dark night at the east coast where we ate and chat. Took some pictures too. Hope the birthday girl ‘feels’ the surprise! The discussion encouraged and gave me the confidence again. And ExCiTiNg! Glorious in all my battles! Faith in victory!

The trial was quite an experience too! This lady is really very kind and friendly. Hope to have more of such fun soon! Looking forward to see them again, new classes, my baby, work…

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

BEAUTIFUL LIFE

Saturday, August 2, 2008

Munchy Moive

Finally can come here to comment…”Hooray” for Chibi!!! It is really a terrific and marvelous movie! Beauty in its art…and it just ended at the climax?? It just makes history interesting. Everything is great except it should be longer…The Chinese feel is back…The wit and the battle…wow

Saw a sms and quite surprised a long time friend actually asked me out for lunch. Happy to meet and eat together and chat about those days.. This week lots of eating together. Enjoyed this Salmon wasabi while studying..then at night continued at Café Cartel.
Jog a little as don’t feel very well (Cia was way ahead). That unwell day, got mixed up with the time. Surprised she did not say anything, anyway it’s getting better.

Feel that our relationship has improved and like the kind of harmony. Very encouraged by the remark. At least I know the stage..yes it’s time for the ‘fun’. Two images: money and phone. Put these together what do you get?

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

BEAUTIFUL LIFE

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Birthday Baby

Birthday Baby

This is so exciting! Such sweet & sour July…had wonderful before, during and after celebration!!! :) :) :)
That evening met her to shop then later he came fetched me for the dinner. I had told him wanted some cool, fun and romantic place and trying new recipe. Once the door opened, “Wow beautiful…” It was too dark to capture anything.
“Cheers” with the red wine, great food! Presence of Fireworks will magnify the whole atmosphere. Exhilarating conversations…Love the bustling activities, people of all nations and background. The black, white, brown, yellow.. the brown even took care of the black making sure she is well-fed. Later he brought me back…

Despite such tough times, I learn to endure. And really means ENDURE. One of them is temptations. God sure has His way of surprises.
On that day I spent the time with my precious peoples. The talk was about what I was facing. Later I witnessed what I never ever in my life. (I weep silently too, all so heartbreaking) Then rushing around, hoping time will go slower.

Had steamy dinner with so many of them too. We cooked, talked, posed, walked, joked, laughed. Wondered why everyone was in this slow posing and walking. Next I saw this orange light lane glowing then heard the song…cool ‘gang’ atmosphere.

Had a second study session. Ordered this wasabi tuna sandwich with chips sort and this special green tea yet not so green drink. Had another surprise when suddenly in this people filled area this lovely love pinky cake appeared. The wind kept blowing the candle. LoL what humourous scene. We went out and I was so touched by all their effort. Thank you everyone. Love the present too. Finally faced my fear. And yes I WILL continue. I pray that I will work very hard, all those projects etc…

And the story continues…

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

BEAUTIFUL LIFE

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Play Time

Play Time

It has been quite meaningful past week. Long hours of activities, challenges to overcome…Even though I feel that it is not enough but I know I am growing. Singing is so fun! Acting to sing is even great!

The chalet was terrific too! Oh can’t wait to share…
It was rush initially but later so happy to meet them. Bought this cute slipper :)
We took the bus to Harbour Front and on the way was ‘entertained’. Later we went to buy drinks and stuff then took the train to the beach. The bus ride was cool with some ‘entertainment’ yet again.

Finally we arrived at the resort. The room was cool with roof top Jacuzzi and OMG the view at the top was so nice! (too bad did not capture it) Later we went to the beach to play Frisbee and ball. So happy! Been ages since ball games. It is really good to play with my fullest energy. Just imagine, the clear blue sky, clouds, sea, ships, nature, sand, people…Little Swallow loves the freedom!

Later we went up to walk and explore. I was sharing about my wish and we captured the most beautiful sunset scene! The fireworks add music to the night! First time is always so precious and memorable. We went for a swim after mid night. I still remember the feeling when I went down. Cold, strange and dark. Later to Jacuzzi, under the starry night, colourful surroundings, laughter and night activity. Even eating in it. After the shower, felt fresher. Tried to sleep on the stairs (by then everyone was lying in all position haha!) Doing things secretly when everyone is asleep is so exciting! LoL.

It would be so romantic with your loved one, even just lying on the shoulder feels so warm and safe. After sleeping, God led me to His place. Now the story just begins! Guess after some rest, it’s time for a brand new life! Everything would be new and fun. Many projects coming and I have faith in all of them!

Thank you everyone, Thank you God for everything! :p

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

BEAUTIFUL LIFE

Saturday, February 9, 2008

CNYear 2008 Gathering

It has been tough days for me recently. After being sick for so long and settling all I need before Chinese New Year I am feeling really exhausted. I am near to giving up…
Reunion dinner as usual. But this time more people. We watched the movie and I really enjoyed and had a good muscle workout laughing throughout. Don’t mind watching another round though. LoL So much to ponder from it. Woman takes up the role! Cool!!

Visiting as usual. New Year season is like food season. Not forgetting all the jokes too…Someday I know I’m gonna miss everything. A time when all will become history. Yea I really miss those times…miss those moments…miss someone…Some things isn’t the same anymore.. Perhaps it’s those nights, perhaps I am really tired and given up..

New year, a time for family and friends gathering. Everyone seems better and happier now. Many changes. Have I grown and improve? Have I experience true happiness? Whatever wrong did I do that makes such situation?
Sigh ~
Guess it’s the way it is. I am who I am. If you don’t like me then you don’t have to. Anyway..maybe..but..and I had enough. Nothing matters anymore…

Shall post up photos of those happenings soon.

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take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

BEAUTIFUL LIFE

Friday, September 14, 2007

Time Out

I meant to come here to take a break. I even thought of this great scenario of “I wish…now” Like you wake up breathing the warm sunshine, the refresh feeling of being in a different environment, then dressing up at the cool washroom cum bathroom. Then you on the TV for the morning entertainment, your “Mu Gua Niu Nai” in the mini fridge, drinking your aroma coffee, trying my yummy new breakfast recipe or if not the breakfast buffet where you got varieties. Your map is ready. You anticipate. The people you will know, the place you will see and the experience that you’re gonna try…

Note that I am emphasizing on the food and drinks. I never know there can be so much joy and happiness to eating. Now I know why kids like chocolate, ice-cream, biscuits, fries, burgers etc.

Haha laugh if you want to. Because that would make me cry. Which is what I want to do now. So what if I am a cry-baby? If only tears can move mountains, my faith would be that stronger.

I hate to be treated like this. Digging through my wounds! Trying and giving my best yet treated like shit. The people supposedly close to you are the ones who hurt the most and the ones who seem far away surprising support you all the way. (so much satirism in it LOL) Empty promises, all they do is talk and talk yet no action. It’s like they induce this light in you then you found it doesn’t match to anything! And alas you got burnt! Talk about love! (note it is the general love, not BGR) Oh no, enough of digging…

That day, I thought about it. Decided that is my greatest fear and worry…Always have this feeling I am not doing my best…How can I make sure they grow well? The responsibility seems to pull me down. I have to admit the intangible is so hard to grasp! I hope someone can provide some useful tips. However the good news is that I found my 2 allies. And here comes the fierce battle! :p
“Just Do It”

Class is ending…yes I will miss it. Can’t describe how excited I am (not the end part but the idea of being able to do that, especially professionally). Hope to find more people I can talk to :)
By the way, my dear fans (opps haha “supporters”), hope to see and talk to you all soon ~ you know who you are ^^

Labels: Food and Drinks

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

Come what may

Gift: Healing

mErRy MeRrY Xmas

Bleak

Baby!

We are Connected to Each Other!

The Best is yet to Come

By the Sea

Munchy Moive

Birthday Baby

Play Time

CNYear 2008 Gathering

Time Out

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