BEAUTIFUL LIFE
Saturday, December 27, 2008
A part
This song played out of random…
明明知道你只是偶然经过
不该奢求太多
我还天真编织可笑的梦
总以为我的温柔让你不舍
朋友都问我爱你什么
这是一种直觉
就像是抬头星光闪烁突然想泪流
不在乎怀抱到最后
只剩寂寞
习惯你让我沉沦
习惯你带我飞恋着你就算世界都幻灭
习惯你给我滋润
习惯你让我枯萎
离开的那一夜别把我的梦敲碎
让我至少保留记忆完美
如果某天我和你偶然遇见
在陌生的街头
你会不会再紧紧拥着我
还是你只是沉默擦身而过
也许前生我欠你太多
这是一场宿命
注定要为你
继续的错继续地堕落
让自己再无路可走
把心伤透
习惯你让我沉沦
习惯你带我飞恋着你就算世界都幻灭
习惯你给我滋润
习惯你让我枯萎
离开的那一夜
不要轻轻叫醒我
让我能保留记忆的完美
As I was singing, memories flood back like a gush of waves. Every part, from the beginning, the time where my heart wrenches like beyond repair…for seconds I felt like I’m in that time. I really FEEL in it. I realized what I’ve been through. Perhaps calming times though seem boring may be a blessing after all. But that charm is hard to resist…I don’t regret just amazed how crazy I was and can be. How God pulled me out of that world and land in this world again. For years, that was the lifestyle. It’s just a matter of getting used and changing.
But I miss that world. I miss being in the wonders of those times…Labels: Music
take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
BEAUTIFUL LIFE
Friday, December 26, 2008
mErRy MeRrY Xmas
I am so so happy today! Their joyous face when they open the presents, the light that shines in their heart…the squeal of delight to “try” the pressies…
The happiness that comes from being thoughtful. The sense of achievement of being “valuable” despite the effort…it’s worth it after all…
Giving seems so difficult but yet it’s indeed better than receiving. Really beginning to understand the meaning of being a blessing to people…
That’s not all! Really enjoyed the dinner with them just now, the feel of family gathering really warms my heart! They’re like so cute and funny and the silly jokes just liven up the whole atmosphere. Where I don’t care and it’s just ME!
Service drama was touching too and the meaning of Christmas was felt. This idea, sowed in my thought, put to action and reaped in my heart. 2008 Christmas - a day of love, happiness, blessing and joy through giving and ‘sacrificing’. Gonna remember this day.
My toe is better now. Despite getting injured I still hope for more of such outing. It was just an accident and not a bad activity. This pain I still remember how fearful it was to change the dressing and to pull out that cotton from my flesh. Sitting there for hours little by little…yet still painful and crying for help. “God save me, God save me” kept saying but only later when I finally pulled it out did I realize God was telling me to take a step of faith. “Pull it out and I will give you the strength to bear it all” He was waiting for me to do it so that He can start healing me. The days where I could not walk properly, limping around my journey to work, to class, squeezing in the crowded bus kept looking down to make sure nobody came near my toe. Ready to attack anyone, ready to protect my leg. Walking on one leg and getting bruised on that leg…worrying about going to work…scolded for being crazy for such “minor” injury…
But yet there’s always something to be grateful and joyful for. We love because He first loves us. Because of suffering and troubles do we realize how to cherish what we have.
Just one small candle it can light up the whole place. It only takes a spark to get a fire going and soon all those around can warm up in its glowing. How beautiful the place with thousands of candles glowing! And never look down on one small candle.
Praise God!!! Enjoyed all the family dining and gathering this season. Lots of photos and memories…catch up soon!!!
MERRY CHRISTMASLabels: Current Affair, Event, Food and Drinks, Fun and Party, People
take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
BEAUTIFUL LIFE
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Bleak
Just back from the workshop…after we parted, I’ve got this strong urge to cry. Any reason? No in particular. Just cry for what I’ve been going through. Such cold weather today…Sunday used to be a quiet and peaceful day…Special Sunday.
Totally hurt by her attitude. Reality just gave me a tight slap on my face. Hate it when I got so weak…What can cause such misunderstanding? Just one mistakes and your life is doom to ruin? The book of Ecclesiastes spoke to my heart. “Nothing makes sense. I have seen it all-nothing makes sense” (12:8) When we use our wisdom, knowledge and skill to get what we own, why do we have to leave it to someone who didn’t work for it?...
Wisdom…need so much…but it is senseless to be wise! Nothing makes sense, wisdom makes sense…it’s still better to be wise than foolish.
That day, I thought I would die. Even took a picture before I face the music, so afraid there’s no more chance. Ate at a Jap restaurant. Quite a relief. And I made it at the wedding. We accomplished so much in one day! At the end of the day, I was so tired that I couldn’t even walk and had to sleep immediately! Well it’s like once in a lifetime experience. Our family grows closer and Sunday was the breakthrough!! Praise God indeed. I wish there’ll be more holiday then we could spend time together. The breakfast, the pizza, then many outings…
I hope things will improve and get better. That day the lunch was great. Best was the Jap section. Aw.. miss Jap and that spaghetti. Wish that you’ll bring me there again. Family. Have been thinking about it recently. It’s really God’s blessing. Kids!!
Real tiring week…Labels: Current Affair, Food and Drinks
take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
BEAUTIFUL LIFE
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Cross Roads
SO much can happen within weeks…no 1 day. After the sickness, after their trip…everything crashed together during this period of mega event. The ‘S’ word makes a toil to my body.
Why have things turn out this way? As the song goes, “…can’t you give this fool a chance? A little love is all I ask, a little kindness in the night…”
Does it stop here? NO! The world doesn’t revolve around this. If there’s someone to blame, then it’s you. Taking things for granted. Being proud. Being indifferent. Being so Extra-Ordinary. That’s where you stumble. Is it really too late to do anything now? The greatest irony is that you thought you’ve sow a good right seed and done all you can…
I want you to really reflect…I want you to grow up and stop this nonsense. Stop being abnormal. Does sorries help? Can it erase all the mark you’ve left? If it can, let me say a thousand times. Why can’t you just listen and learn? Why can’t you just cherish it and be wise to utilize it?!
What a doctor! Feel so cheated by your treatment. I thought you’re the kindest person ever who is willing to talk to me. I thought you understand and trusts you! I’ve got caught in my own trap. Sadly, I still have not the courage to face it. I wish there’ll be no tomorrow and would die to my flesh right away. It’s the wrong desire…no I don’t want a shattered dream…
How many times we sin and turn away from Him? It’s definitely NOT good to be ignored. It feels fearful and you can tremble at the slightest action. My eyes are swollen. It’s too heavy and draining. I am not complaining but asking that question to me at this point in time is so disappointing. I pray that God bless you, I really wish you well. You’re a wonderful person in every way.
I really don’t know what to do. This time my “I don’t know” really works. No I can’t cry…Stop…please let it end
What I hope is good relationship and trust. Let me DO it. I really have Faith in what I can achieve. I believe in my dreams……In all things God work for the good of us.
I really wish you will change your mind…I really hope let there be miracles!!!
Let’s pray…Labels: Current Affair, People
take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
