BEAUTIFUL LIFE
Monday, August 30, 2010
Start of a New Chapter
Sot ended. There is so much to say and I don’t know where to start. But one thing I know – I miss Sot. I misss every single moment.. from my morning marathon to the train ride. To be happy or sad? Though I’m glad I AM in sot but it’s also a very very heartbreaking period of time for me. Like what they say it is not the end but the beginning. It is the start of a renewed life, the birth of a dream, a fresh new start!
God, I want to thank you for these past six months. I still remember on my very first day I attended Bs, and now people life transform. I couldn’t get use and kept falling sick. And the wilderness experience. Each time the trials get more and more challenging till I seriously don’t know what else I can do and if there is still life ahead. There are times when I have nothing more…nothing else and I wonder if I should quit. I had no money to eat and travel. Once sis blessed me with a bread for dinner. And topped up a $20 to my travelling card. If not I could not go home. At that time, I truly experienced what is love and thankfulness. I was on the bus holding the small bread tightly and weeping. It’s just a small bun. But this bread (cost less than $2?) – one filled with love, kindness and goodness was priceless to me.
After a period of time, as condition gets worse, I eat lesser but I thank God that I did not get ill. In fact I’m surprise with the strength I received and that what keeps me alive is really by the power of the Spirit. I wish I can remember every single detail. So that I can exclaim how miraculously He brings me through. Many first times too! I'm sure more to come.
To quit halfway or not? Much disappointment, rejection… but when I am weak, I am strong. To add on betrayal, separation, a hell of nonsense… who cares? Fighting battles alone is really…WOW. A quitter never wins. A winner never quits. I want to breakthrough. I want to win through my struggles. Hence what came next really was like WOWwww. “Hell” “Valley of the Shadow of Death” ,you name it. Well I may not understand, but I trust that God has a purpose for me. Yes it is painful. But our God is our healer.
No matter what God is still faithful and He LOVES me. He knows all things and is powerful and He will always be with me. There are so many things to share! Before I close this chapter, let me go through everything once again – from standing on stage to receive the ‘gift’ from Pastor Kong, being an Sot graduate, empowered, equipped, responsibilities, salt & light…
Oh not forgetting my assignments and quite happy with my grades (surprised with my preaching score! Heeeee), ministry, overall everything is GOOD!!! Because God is Good. I may lose many things but I trust that He will give me even better things. What else? Oh there is so much to share I wish I can share them to bless others!
Am I transformed?
How have I changed?
Hmm…from the first day to the last day…
Greater things have yet to come. What is ahead is surely better than before and now. Yes I can still hope. Thank You God….. I love you too :)Labels: Books, Current Affair, Event
take my HAND; and GUIDE me through *hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*
